Let’s get personal. I turn 27 years old in one week. I truly feel like I just turned 25. That was such a huge birthday for me. Mostly because I made some big life goals for that year. I’ve always been a goal-maker. I love making lists and turning 25 seemed like a great year to make some changes. One goal was to find a different job. Not only find a different job, but have the courage to leave the position I was filling. Truthfully, I wanted a promotion…a new job with a salary double of what I was used to earning. I just knew it would happen, because people who work hard, get what they deserve.
I did work hard with very few days off while going to grad school full-time. I did pursue and interview for several promotions that I thought were my “dream job.” And I failed. Not only did I stay in the same position, but I slowly turned into this toxic shell of a person who was just going to work to pay bills. I gained a lot of weight. I cried most days on the way to work and on the way home. I prayed everyday for a change…and God’s answer was always wait.
I learned very early on in my life that there are 3 answers to every question: yes, no, and wait. Honestly, waiting is the most challenging. I’m not a patient person. I hate the unknown, because I am a planner. However, I had to practice faith and wait as patiently as I could for what God wanted for me. I knew in my heart it would be worth it.
11 months after my 25th birthday, I applied for and accepted a new position at an elementary school. It wasn’t a promotion. It even paid less annually. But it was the breath of fresh air that I needed. Still, as I turned 26, God’s answer was wait. So, I continued with grad school. I started a new fitness routine (although I haven’t made much progress). I taught a college course to help make up the difference in pay. And when I had a moment to breathe, I could feel my soul healing. I was busy from November until May, but I was happier. I knew that position was temporary, so I started making new goals. Now, my goals revolved around a simple life. Not money. Not a promotion with a title. I started thinking about what I am good at. When you are interviewing and being rejected for job after job, it’s easy to start doubting your worth. At least, it was very easy for me. So, I sat down with a pen and notebook and started a list of everything I’m great at. It didn’t take long to realize that I wanted to create. I wanted to write. I wanted to make pretty things. I wanted to share my life with others in hopes of making their days a little brighter.
I decided to start this blog and re-brand my Etsy shop.
It hasn’t been easy. I accepted a different position within the same school that requires more time. I have been working diligently on finishing my very last semester of grad school all while building my small business on Etsy.
I’m busy. I still have little time for family and friends, but there is a bright, shining light at the end of the tunnel. I graduate with my masters in one week! ONE WEEK! You guys…I’ll be FINISHED with grad school before I turn 27. Granted, that’s only happening because I refuse to do finals after my birthday, but still. One more week. Even better, this holiday season has helped AnaMaeDesign grow so much. My goals that I made are HAPPENING. My dreams are HAPPENING. It isn’t easy, but it’s real and it’s my life and I love it. I’m finally seeing why God asked me to wait. While I’m not where I want to be, yet, I can feel it coming. I have a new list of goals for year 27 and I’ll share those soon. For now, if you’re still reading, I want you to know that you can achieve your dreams. It will take a ton of work, but you can do it!
You just have to start.